Since my last post

 Nov. 2nd was my last post. Nov. 16th I went out to sit with my dad in the hospital for nine days and he passed away Nov. 30th. It is still very unreal. These pictures are from the summer of 2013. We are in Tahoe and life was good. He had just finished a bone marrow transplant and chemo- had his hair back and getting his strength back. Sense of humor in full force. Since Nov. 30th my sister Leah has gotten married to her love of 8 years on 12-13-14. I've gone back to my parents and dealt with budgets and financial stuff for mom, spent time with my sisters, walked the dogs, spotted the wild horses,went through dads clothes and set aside all of his shirts and jeans to make quilts, spent Thanksgiving,  Christmas and New Years with my hubby and girls. This week I wrote dad's obit and thank you letters to his doctors. I cry everyday that I've been back. Grief is a very interesting thing to go through. I'll be fine and all of a sudden it is a punch to the gut and a hand squeezing my throat and tears falling down my cheeks. And I am thankful for it. I thank God that he now has my dad and he is no longer in pain and his perfect self. I'm thankful it hurts this much because that means I loved him very much, but I'm going to miss him. I feel like I'm mourning my Papa and Nana, my dad, moving from NY, not having my horses, all of those past hurts that I never dealt with completely. It is going to make for an intersting 2015. I hope I deal with all of this with grace.

Thank you for indulging me in this and I am going to get back to the normal post of meal planning, quilting, weight loss and what not. Happy New Year to you all and many blessings to all of you.